How to swim through pain

 You will feel like drowning
I won’t lie to you
It will be bloody scary
And agonisingly slow
As if time stopped
Exactly at Pain o’clock.

 But it will pass.
Just keep swimming
And when you are ready
Let go completely
Submerge into water
Give in to the darkness.

 You will come out on the other side
Purified.
And the ashes of your broken heart
Will keep you warm
Until the new dawn.

River flows in sacred blood
Soaking shores with fertile mud
Here lies Lilith on its bank
Combing golden hair like sand
Wreck of greedy ships that sank
In her rapture giving hands
Female pleasure leads a man
To most savage of the lands.

Inside every moon
We bloom in red poppies
We smell as spring
They taught us we stink
Inside every moon
We hide our pride
We burry beneath
The strength that we seek

 The feminine red
Is sacred when bled

Falling in love with you 
Feels like lying on the operating table 
While getting a heart transplant 
Without a numbing agent.
I pray that my body 
Would never reject you.

I run no more 
To small talk 
To pointless rush 
To light polluted nights 
Never dark enough 
To overwhelming sounds 
Of everyone around 
Achieving short success 
But hiding inner mess 
Inside the crumbling today 
No one withholds decay 
From creeping into tailored places 
Their decorated lawns 
Most lustful of embraces 
Or nightmarish moans. 

 Nothing is as sad 
As watching the world go mad 
Everyday’s normality 
Is dying in insanity.